Cognitive Alchemy (Introduction & Primer)

Part 1: Deprogramming with metaphysics & magick : a how to guide: In my next post I will outline the details of what that process of reprogramming spiritually, purification & protection. How and what that starts to look like in detail, the psychology and metaphysics in a simple dot point format based upon a dot point overlap from both my own personal notes from my personal journals. Sharing it in order to provide a valuable resource that may also help others going through the integrating from MKULTRA & trauma based mind control programming process based on formula I have utilised in my own recovery. I will also outline my personal energy work for cleansing, grounding and healing your energetic sphere of influence, grounding, cantering and balancing your energetic field. This is based around the Wiccan & Ceremonial Magickal pathworking grades of elemental Air, Fire, Water & Earth. in addition to the tree of life and the kabbalah in its purest form, a system that has been inverted and programmed in many survivors. Why I see this is as important for survivors of ritual abuse and trauma based mind control is we have endured the most heinous left hand park, black lodge, black magick rituals that need to be intricately reversed. The most intense spiritual processes cannot or will not touch programming that is done with more modern technologically adept methods, especially those in the mid-late 80s-90s. Prayer and deliverance has its place but alone can often upset powerful generational spirits cemented inside the minds of survivors. By unlocking and relaying and then purging, purifying and cleansing entire system that was cemented by your programming in THE RIGHT WAY, you can achieve the most optimal deliverance, healing and exorcism (and more), that is rendered ineffective or ultimately, uninstalled by the self imposed blocks, and limits, programming has in place, alone. It’s not a path for those who want to walk an easy path. It is going to be hard either way. It will be uncomfortable on each side. This path is not a new age or generic gimmick, and has stood the test of time. It will at all times wherever possible avoid triggering themes like Hebrew words and themes that are lacking clear discernment of what they mean like other ceremonial magickal systems like The Golden Dawn, OTO, A.A. (Meaning everything is in plain English and easy to understand, unless it’s spiritism based prayers where it’s deviated into latinised roots but can be understood & translated back).

The impact of ritual abuse

The quality of life of ritual abuse survivors is undermined every day by flashbacks, hypervigilance, insomnia, eating disturbances and chronic physical and psychosomatic pain as a result of torture. The psychological condition of survivors is at the most extreme end of the post-traumatic scale.

Memories of ritual abuse are lodestones of degradation and shame that can persist in the consciousness of a survivor for decades. When these memories surface, they do so repetitively and with visceral force. A few evocative words can be enough to trigger flashbacks in which every sensation of childhood rape and torture is relived over and over again. The shame and bodily agony associated with memories of ritual abuse may incapacitate an adult survivor and leave them unable to work or care for their loved ones.

For captive adults still being abused, their memories constitute a prison without walls. Perpetrators can punish disobedience from afar using the phone or email. A few well-placed words can trigger new memories, new flashbacks, and a new source of terror and pain for the victim. Many captive adults would rather endure another ordeal of rape and torture, where dissociation leaves them blessedly numb and amnestic, than be forced to relive the atrocities of their childhood.

some of the diagnostic criteria for ‘complex’ types of PTSD are particularly relevant to ritual abuse, including:

- Sense of complete difference from others

- Belief that the self is not human

- Preoccupation with relationship with perpetrator

- Attribution of total power to perpetrator

- Idealisation of perpetrator, gratitude to perpetrator

- Belief in a supernatural/special relationship with a perpetrator

-Acceptance of belief system or rationalisations of perpetrator

- Repeated failures of self-protection

- Sense of hopelessness and despair

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

BPD is a common diagnosis for survivors of severe sexual abuse (Herman, Perry et al. 1989). It describes survivors’ difficulties in interpersonal relationships, and in regulating their emotional states. It is sometimes a ‘catch-all’ category for difficult clients, and some clinicians have called BPD a veiled insult, implying little capacity for recovery and ignoring the history of sadistic victimisation disclosed by many sufferers of BPD (Shaw and Proctor 2005).

Nevertheless, some of the treatments for BPD can be very effective for the ritual abuse survivor – particularly treatments such as Dialectic Behavioural Therapy which focuses on emotional skills and builds the capacity of the survivor to manage their day-to-day life and social interactions.