Showing posts with label occult. Show all posts
Showing posts with label occult. Show all posts

Tuesday, 19 December 2023

Cognitive Alchemy (Introduction & Primer)

Part 1: Deprogramming with metaphysics & magick : a how to guide: In my next post I will outline the details of what that process of reprogramming spiritually, purification & protection. How and what that starts to look like in detail, the psychology and metaphysics in a simple dot point format based upon a dot point overlap from both my own personal notes from my personal journals. Sharing it in order to provide a valuable resource that may also help others going through the integrating from MKULTRA & trauma based mind control programming process based on formula I have utilised in my own recovery. I will also outline my personal energy work for cleansing, grounding and healing your energetic sphere of influence, grounding, cantering and balancing your energetic field. This is based around the Wiccan & Ceremonial Magickal pathworking grades of elemental Air, Fire, Water & Earth. in addition to the tree of life and the kabbalah in its purest form, a system that has been inverted and programmed in many survivors. Why I see this is as important for survivors of ritual abuse and trauma based mind control is we have endured the most heinous left hand park, black lodge, black magick rituals that need to be intricately reversed. The most intense spiritual processes cannot or will not touch programming that is done with more modern technologically adept methods, especially those in the mid-late 80s-90s. Prayer and deliverance has its place but alone can often upset powerful generational spirits cemented inside the minds of survivors. By unlocking and relaying and then purging, purifying and cleansing entire system that was cemented by your programming in THE RIGHT WAY, you can achieve the most optimal deliverance, healing and exorcism (and more), that is rendered ineffective or ultimately, uninstalled by the self imposed blocks, and limits, programming has in place, alone. It’s not a path for those who want to walk an easy path. It is going to be hard either way. It will be uncomfortable on each side. This path is not a new age or generic gimmick, and has stood the test of time. It will at all times wherever possible avoid triggering themes like Hebrew words and themes that are lacking clear discernment of what they mean like other ceremonial magickal systems like The Golden Dawn, OTO, A.A. (Meaning everything is in plain English and easy to understand, unless it’s spiritism based prayers where it’s deviated into latinised roots but can be understood & translated back).

Sunday, 14 December 2014

Musings on my Soul Fragmentation & Incarnation

 Soul loss and BPD: 

Given a ‘BPD’ diagnosis is generally a combination of invalidating (usually coupled with severe trauma) childhood experiences, and biological genetic predisposition. I feel it is relatively safe to conclude that my inherent existential dread, incessant 'god is dead’ sentiments and being barred from 'enlightenment’, is not simply the symptom of a faulty biochemical reaction in my brain, or merely 'depression’; but rather a complex spiritual malady that manifests with an array of symptoms that conform to a BPD diagnosis. Having a 'disorded personality’, means soul loss is major component of shamanism that resonates with me.

Trauma is a major cause of soul fragmentation and subsequent soul loss. 

Recent meditations have enabled me to conclude that my soul has suffered not only in this life, but endlessly across the span of past incarnations. 

With each incarnation the damage compiles, and thus when my energy body was disfigured and disconnected from reality in this current life from childhood sexual abuse; my energy field was torn apart, allowing all the traumas from previous incarnations to flood into my fragmented self and follow me forth into this lifetime. 

This lifetime is where I contend with an eternal accumulation of pain. 

For years I have searched endlessly for the missing link between my BPD and spirituality. Only recently did the concept of soul retrieval become apparent. 

Upon exiting my mothers womb, my paternal grandmother snapped me up moments after the doctors had cleaned me, and severed the umbilical cord. She attempted to 'kidnap’ me from the hospital. This never allowed me that initial bond with my mother. The perfect sentiments of disconnection enabled the development of a disordered, fragmented personality, which manifested eventually as an array of severe mental illnesses. 

My fathers family lineage is deeply rooted in occultism and freemasonry. My paternal grandmother was dismissed by the rest of my family at the time of my birth for being in a “transient psychosis” as a result of trauma from her estranged, manic depressive ex husband. Although given her inclination to participate in mediumship, séances and converse with the dead, I am now inclined to think she was under some deeper spiritual influence when she attempted to take me from the hospital that day of my birth.

This same person (my grandmother) was also responsible for introducing me to the man who sexually abused me. In retrospect, I now believe my incarnation was intended to follow a path in which childhood and adolescent traumas would enable me to tackle deeper seated issues residing deep at the core of my broken spirit. 

The notion of being born into a family who is deeply tied into the occult, mediumship, secret societies and freemasonry from both parents sides, allowed me free reign to formulate my spiritual beliefs and satiate my thirst for knowledge, leading to my current spiritual paradigm. 

Psychic abilities, supernatural experiences and hauntings were merely 'the norm’ amongst my family. 

Although my personal puzzle is still incredibly disjointed, today has revealed a large portion of missing information that allows me to rekindle many of the synchronicities and mysterious life events that have been lamenting my existence since my inception.

And thus this perplexing journey unravels.(to be continued later on when I have more intel).